My kids tell me to just go get a job. That’s much easier said than done! I’ve gone to 6 employment agencies and turned in countless resumes, I search Craigslist and online newspaper classifieds daily, and frankly, there is no convincing me there isn’t an age discrimination thing going on against those of us older than 40. Perhaps there always was but it didn’t matter so much because I “thought” I’d done enough to secure my own financial well-being. God, I hate surprises anymore!

I’ve learned over the years to listen more carefully to my gut instincts and this rant addresses my unwillingness or inability to pay attention. That’s the trust part of the equation. Even though these instinctive “knowings” were  always there, I simply wasn’t always willing to listen. 

It’s funny how we humans can justify anything….. truly ANYTHING. Whether we use God (God told me to….) or guilt (if I don’t do this….), we’ll find a way to make the choice seem right and then suffer the consequences of that choice later. Sometimes it turns out ok. Other times, not so much. But either way, there are consequences!