Today I have to decide whether to pay my electric bill or not. To do so means I’d have to take the last dollars out of my savings account. It isn’t like that account is earning any interest, so that can’t be the problem. It’s gotta be a psychological thing, reminding me how scary my financial picture has become recently. I know I’m not alone in feeling downright scared shitless in these difficult economic times, but damn, it requires a daily concerted effort to remain positive about the future.
My kids tell me to just go get a job. That’s much easier said than done! I’ve gone to 6 employment agencies and turned in countless resumes, I search Craigslist and online newspaper classifieds daily, and frankly, there is no convincing me there isn’t an age discrimination thing going on against those of us older than 40. Perhaps there always was but it didn’t matter so much because I “thought” I’d done enough to secure my own financial well-being. God, I hate surprises anymore!